Category: Artist Diary


  • LONDON METAMORPHOSIS

    People often ask what London gave me, and for a long time I never really knew how to answer that question. The easiest response would be to talk about practical things: the opportunities, the work, the people I met. But the truth is that what happened to me here was much harder to explain, because…

  • THE COST OF DISHONESTY

    I consider myself a lucky person. Not because my life has always been easy, but because I’ve had the chance to live it on my own terms. I’ve lived in the places I wanted to live, done the jobs I wanted to do, travelled to places I dreamed of visiting, tried countless hobbies simply because…

  • CURIOSITY IS A FORM OF TRUST

    Today was supposed to be all about a milk bar. We had decided to walk almost two hours from the centre of Kraków just to have lunch in one of the old communist-era milk bars. Most people would probably have taken a tram. We walked instead.

  • WE WEREN’T ARGUING ABOUT MONEY

    Today, while I was travelling in Poland, I received a phone call from a friend. He needed help. Not advice, not someone to listen to him, but financial help. A significant amount of money. I didn’t think about it for very long. I simply told him yes. The person I was travelling with looked at…

  • WHY I LOVE CHAOS

    For most of my life, I believed what we’re all taught to believe: that chaos is something to avoid. We spend years trying to become more organised, more efficient, more in control. We treat uncertainty as a problem to solve, convinced that the best ideas come from having the perfect plan.

  • THE LIFE THAT IS ALREADY HERE

    Yesterday I had a procedure under general anaesthetic. When I got home, tired and still a little foggy, I found myself thinking about something I hadn’t really put into words before. Since I became ill in 2022, a huge part of my life has been dedicated to getting better. At the beginning, I had no…

  • WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE?

    A few days ago, I found myself having the same conversation I’ve had countless times throughout my life. Someone looked at everything I do and said, “But you do too many things. You need to choose. You should focus on one path, otherwise you’re just spreading yourself too thin. You need to actually achieve something.”

  • SCREAMING FOR FREEDOM

    Today I understood something important about myself. This morning, I was supposed to go to a queer, sex-positive party in London for the first time. It was one of those huge events that go on for more than 24 hours straight.