Yesterday felt different. Nothing extraordinary happened. There was no big revelation, no dramatic moment, no sudden voice in my head announcing that everything had changed. I simply lived my day, and somewhere in the middle of it, without even noticing exactly when it happened, something shifted.

Today I found myself wondering whether pigeons know they’re in London. I know. This is the kind of extremely important question my brain apparently decides to spend time on. But seriously, does a pigeon sitting in Trafalgar Square know it is in London?

Today was a good day. I don’t mean that anything extraordinary happened. There was no big event, no incredible news, no dramatic turning point. It was simply one of those days when, from the moment I woke up until the moment I decided it was finally time to go to bed, I somehow disappeared into…

I haven’t been sleeping properly since the 15th of August. At first I thought it would last a few nights. I was going through an extremely difficult period, my head was full of thoughts, and it made sense that sleep had become difficult. But then one night became two, then three, then four, and eventually…

A few days ago, I was out walking when I suddenly thought: You know what? I want to go to the library. I wasn’t looking for a particular book. I just felt that I needed to find something that could help me through this particular moment of my life. Maybe a different perspective. Maybe an…

I woke up a few mornings ago with a book in my head. I hadn’t been planning to write another one. I hadn’t been sitting at my desk taking notes or consciously trying to turn what has happened to me into a story. The night before, I had watched a video that stayed with me.…

Today I bought a printer. And while I was taking it out of the box, removing all the plastic, looking at the ink bottles and trying to understand where everything was supposed to go, I realised that I was ridiculously happy. Not normal: I bought a new piece of technology and was happy. I was…

Last night I couldn’t sleep. I was lying there with my brain refusing to switch off, so at some point I ended up doing what I often do when that happens: randomly jumping from one YouTube video to another. I wasn’t looking for anything in particular. I wasn’t trying to understand my life or have…

Today I stood in front of a melon for an embarrassingly long time. It was a tiny Italian sweet melon, the kind I used to buy at the market in Italy. It cost £7.88, which for something that small felt completely ridiculous. But I picked it up and smelled it, and for a second I…

For the past few days, I haven’t wanted to talk to anyone. I don’t want conversations, questions, opinions, advice, problems to solve or people needing something from me. Even a message on my phone can irritate me at the moment, and at first I wondered if I was simply exhausted by what has happened recently.…